[ well then at least it's not Remus, so. huh. does she even know any other werewolves? she can't think of any. but she does know they're there, since- yeah. hm. ]
alright, alright. are *you* okay? why do i feel like it was less you just taking a swing at someone and more you picked a fight and they went along with it? [ face meet palm ]
[ there's like a two second period where Raven thinks it's an okay idea to reply with something along the lines of 'oh, yeah I get that', but. no. these are things she will not talk about with Wesley Gibson nooooopenopenopenopenope! ]
oh.
and now i'd like to take this moment to acknowledge that i'm just so gosh-darn proud of you for making a friend. someone that trusts you with their secret, no less. thats kind of a big deal, you know.
really though, Wes, i'm serious about the big deal thing. and as much as i like the idea of you being only *my* overprotective best friend, there's probably a lot more people on this ship that could use somebody like that.
but they told you they're a werewolf when nobody else knows. sure, sure. and being protective doesn't have to mean defending their virtue at every turn, it could just be.. knowing somebody's got your back. but sorry, i forgot you're allergic to the F word.
you know my answer's only going to gross you out. can you really handle that? me talking about friendship? i might end up using the words 'care' and 'happiness' in the same text message.
i think i'm just fixated on the idea of you meeting someone that changes your ideas of friendship. or how you feel about it, yeah. i'm not saying i want someone to change *you*, just... there's gotta be somebody out there that can help you see for yourself that having people around that care about you isn't a bad thing. i mean really, i only ever had one friend growing up, but that was enough to clue me in on how much better things are when you have someone to share them with. i know we don't really talk about home, where you're from, but the idea of you not having a friend like that seriously eats at me. you might be an assassin and you might carry a lot of anger but that doesn't mean you don't deserve to be around people that make you happy or anything. i dunno. like i'm probably way off base here and you can get mad at me for thinking about it so much, but i really just want to know you're happy.
[there's a moment where he considers mentioning cathy or barry. but he knows that bringing up either of them isn't going to help his case. not when the two of them were fucking behind his back. (never mind that he knew and did fuck all to stop them). and the members of the fraternity- well, they're not an option. so instead, it's easier to just deny it all.]
i don't mean like.. content. or just okay. and i'm not saying i think you're miserable all the time or anything either. i dunno it's hard to explain. [ because a part of it is she sees a look in Wesley's eyes that she's never, ever seen in Charles'. they're completely different people, like she really doesn't remotely compare them anymore, but there's something much darker in Wesley's, like he's ready to be betrayed at any second. expects it. it drives her nuts ] although the way you react to me being affectionate is a pretty big sign. why won't you let me hug you!!!! [ because she can't handle this talk about friendship being so heavy ]
no but really, when i'm not happy i don't want anybody touching me at all ever i just wanna be left alone. i know i can't just walk up and ask a person 'hey why don't you like it when i link my arm with yours when we walk or if i give you a hug in greeting?' so i just kind of assume you're not used to it because you never had someone give that too you freely and hence! you might not be totally happy.
you do realize we're two completely different people, right? some people just don't like hugs and all that shit, and you've just got to deal with it cause that's not going to change
i know we're different but *you* know that's not my point. i'm only telling you why i think the things i think and feel the things i feel.
so you're telling me that i should just deal with the fact that someone i care about has no desire to experience anything remotely like affection, even from me, even though you know that's how *i* am as a person, and there's nothing i can do to change that?
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alright, alright. are *you* okay? why do i feel like it was less you just taking a swing at someone and more you picked a fight and they went along with it? [ face meet palm ]
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fighting is simpler and they agreed
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oh.
and now i'd like to take this moment to acknowledge that i'm just so gosh-darn proud of you for making a friend. someone that trusts you with their secret, no less. thats kind of a big deal, you know.
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why are you so fixated on this friendship crap? you may like having people around you, but i don't. that should be pretty obvious by now
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i think i can manage
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who says i'm not happy already?
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so not liking hugs means i'm not happy?
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i put a lot of thought into this don't be mad
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i didn't. so you've either got to deal with it or we'll just keep having this same conversation until we leave
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so you're telling me that i should just deal with the fact that someone i care about has no desire to experience anything remotely like affection, even from me, even though you know that's how *i* am as a person, and there's nothing i can do to change that?
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you have no idea how much you already do that i'd kick the shit out of someone else for even attempting
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( i hear you loud and clear wesley gibson, i won't push )
but i will tease you about it c:
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