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[darkholme]

i know we're different but *you* know that's not my point. i'm only telling you why i think the things i think and feel the things i feel.

so you're telling me that i should just deal with the fact that someone i care about has no desire to experience anything remotely like affection, even from me, even though you know that's how *i* am as a person, and there's nothing i can do to change that?

[target]

i'm not telling you anything. i'm suggesting that you find someone else to direct all that "affection" towards cause i don't need it

you have no idea how much you already do that i'd kick the shit out of someone else for even attempting

[darkholme]

so i'm guessing that means sitting on your lap and playing with your hair is a no-go

( i hear you loud and clear wesley gibson, i won't push )

but i will tease you about it c:

[target]

as long as we're clear

[darkholme]

sooo... since we're sharing..

how is sex okay but hugging's not? it's my understanding you need to get pretty close to someone physically to have sex with them. where's that line? just so we really are clear.

[ nOW SHE'S CURIOUS you brought this on yourself ]

[target]

there's a point to sex

[granted, he still hasn't had any in a long time. but he knows it's a good way to work out some frustrations]

[darkholme]

elaborate?

[target]

sometimes people get wound up. a good fuck can get it all back out again

i'd show you but that'd be pretty fucking weird

[darkholme]

oh. oh! no, i mean. i knew that. i don't- i usually just end up sparring instead. like you said before.

would it be a lost cause if i try to explain maybe hugging someone when you're just a little stressed is basically the same as ..fucking somebody when you're really stressed?

[target]

it's not the same. trust me

[darkholme]

suuuuure sure sure.

[target]

you need to get laid. then you'll see

[darkholme]

um excuse you you don't know my bedroom life here okay i don't need to get anything

[ LOL yes she does ]

like i said, i spar instead. i don't need to be angry to want to sleep with someone.

[target]

"it's my understanding you need to get pretty close to someone physically to have sex with them." doesn't sound like the voice of experience. besides, with xavier on your back all the time, i doubt you get the chance

fighting only gets you so far

[darkholme]

i was being sarcastic! poking fun at the fact that you don't like physical affection but you enjoy sex. and Charles actually has no room to be on my back about that, so i'm pretty free to make any and all kinds of decisions in that department.

sounds to me like you haven't been fighting the right people

[target]

i'm not fighting you

[darkholme]

hey, that's fine. i don't think i really wanna fight with you, judging by the way you talk about it. sounds to me like it's probably lacking in all the fun ways. and what's the point of that?

[target]

fighting isn't about "having fun". it's about learning to survive

[darkholme]

not the kind of fighting i was talking about.

[target]

what kind's that then?

[darkholme]

there's training and survival and blahblahblah and then there's fighting for fun. there's finding someone you trust enough to pick a fight with at any time and you know they're gonna handle whatever you throw at them, and they would never put you in any real danger. it's pushing your limits without being afraid of a few bruises, but without fearing an injury that's gonna keep you out of play for a while. it's knowing somebody well enough to know what they can take, what they *want* to take, but still managing to surprise each other and keep you on your toes every time you go at it. [ it's exactly what she has with Jim Kirk ] that's the kind of fighting i do when i dont feel like worrying about the complicated strings attached to having sex with someone

[target]

that's not fighting. that's playing, and there's no fucking point to it

[darkholme]

oh please! since when are you anti-fun-guy? suddenly someone's gotta have a knife to your throat to get you to see the point in something?

[target]

never said that. but if you're fighting, it's got a point. what you do isn't fighting, so don't say it is

[darkholme]

it's stress relief. it's punching and kicking and throwing and shoving, it's fighting. it's just fun. not everything has to be a training session in survival for it to count.