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Oh--

[Even a gentle bite is enough to make goosebumps rise on his skin, and Remus lets out a happy little noise as he feels her fingers rake through his hair.]

That's-- ah, that's wonderful--

Good. [ because she's really enjoying herself with this, and it makes it better to know that it's not completely selfish. her knees move around his hips, pulling him on top of her more directly, her free hand bunching up in his jumpsuit as she finds another place to bite into on his neck. a little lower, a little harder. it's- needy, in a way, it's clingy and possessive and she's not getting rough, she's not intensely sinking her teeth into him, but her tired energy is turning into something else, that's obvious. her tongue presses against his skin as she sucks on that same spot, trying hard not to leave a mark]

Oh, god--

[He gasps softly and scrabbles his fingers blindly, tugging at the zipper of her jumpsuit.]

Christ, you're-- god, your bloody mouth, Raven--

Shhh. [ she's caught laughing, a little bit, her eyes squeezing shut as she hides her face against his shoulder, but then-

oh right. unzipping.

why is she suddenly so nervous? ]

Wait, wait, I'm not-

[ she's not blue. it's different. ]

M'sorry, I shouldn't have.. gotten so ahead of myself, I probably shouldn't- I mean.

[ what does she mean ]

What's wrong?

[With some difficulty he pulls away from her, far enough that he can meet her eyes.]

Shouldn't what? We don't have to if you don't want to-- I'm sorry, I just--

It's okay, it's not- I want to, it's just. It feels wrong to when I look like this.

[ her cheeks darken a little bit, brow furrowed up ]

It feels like I'm hiding something when I'm like this.

[He makes a soft noise of disagreement and leans down, bumping their noses together.]

I love you in your natural form. But this form-- blonde, I mean-- is as much you to me. And it's still you no matter what form you take. Whatever you're most comfortable with, Raven, is fine-- but I don't think it's quite wrong when you're blonde.

[ her hand moves to the side of his face, really just to brush her knuckles over his cheek, little signs of affection while her eyes squeeze shut, feeling grateful and a little worried all at once. ]

Nn. You're right, I know. I think. I grew up with this face, but it doesn't feel like me anymore, sometimes. But, um. [ another breath, and then she finally opens her eyes again ] I have to tell you something. Something I did, last month. It's about my mutation.

What's wrong?

[He pushes his thumb against her cheek, gently.]

[ she leans into that touch, presses a kiss to the heel of his hand. ]

I can't- shift anymore. Not like I used to.

[ and it's obvious she h a t e s it ]

I did something while I was wearing my mask and it altered my DNA. It's changed how my mutation works.

What did you do?

[And that sounds so awful, awful enough that he leans down to kiss her quickly.]

We can fix it. We can-- there's people on here, Charles, he can help. If it's something you did yourself, surely we can reverse it.

I injected myself with a serum. It was supposed to enhance my abilities. That's how it worked at home.

[ she shakes her head a little bit, wincing ]

I already asked Charles. The serum was designed to permanently alter a mutant's X-genes. And it's not all bad, I'm stronger now, and faster, but my shifting is completely messed up. It's- [ painful. ] -harder now, to change.

[He pushes his thumb against her cheek again.]

I-- is there any chance it can get easier in time?

I don't know. [ she glances sideways for a second, bites the inside of her lip ] It's like. It's like I can feel it now, the changes in my body when I change form. It's this stretching, cracking, pulling sensation, instead of.. fluttering, like before. And it takes longer. [ she huffs ] I really, really screwed up, Remus.

But you can still do it.

[He assures her of that, even as he pushes his fingers through her hair, trying to stay close.]

The ability is still there. It may be harder, yes, but-- it could be worse. Is it painful?

[ she nods before she can think to stop herself, because no, she doesn't want to talk about how painful it is, but it's hard to pretend that it's not. though he's right, she can still shift, which means she hasn't ruined her mutation, not really. maybe she can learn to handle the pain better, over time. maybe. ]

Let's not talk about it anymore. [ please, please, please. she gives him a kiss at the corner of his mouth, readjusts her legs around his hips ] I should have waited for another time to bring it up, I just.. didn't want to keep it from you. But it's not- I can just show you, when I can't hold this shift anymore. Hopefully it won't be for another few days. So. Yeah. [ she leans up to kiss him again ] Yeah.. [ kissing, right, let's get back to kissing- ]

[He returns those kisses, and goes for another, because this isn't something he should push now-- but before they go back, he murmurs:]

It'll be okay. I promise. We'll figure this out.

[And then he kisses her again, firmly, trying to reinforce his words with all the love he feels for her, the affection and fondness and worry--]

[ which, incidentally, translates into one fantastic kiss. she's a little selfish about it at first, letting him kiss her, holding onto him like she needs this, needs a second to push herself away from what they were just talking about. her hands slide in from his shoulders to his neck, one hand sinking into his hair again because well, he has really tuggable hair. ]

[He lets out a happy little noise, arching his back and tilting his head-- god, but he likes it when she rakes her hands though his hair. And he teases at her jumpsuit zipper again, tugging it down just slightly-- but not as fast as he could, because he's waiting for a sign of approval from her.]

[ Raven catches his lip between her teeth, tugging at it playfully, trying to lighten the mood ( well, her own mood, by letting herself be playful with him ). it's hard to give him the space he needs to unzip her jumpsuit when all she wants to do is pull him closer, but she loosens her grip on him, rests back into the mattress once she lets go of his lip ]

You really like that, huh? [ said as she pulls her fingers up from the back of his neck into his hair again ]

Ye-- ah-- yeah--

[Remus squirms happily, though he's not so distracted he doesn't take the opportunity to tug her zipper down to her hips.]

Don't laugh, you go mad when I kiss your neck--

Because it feels good when you kiss my neck. It's a little different than my nails on your scalp.

[ her opposite hand is moving between them to unzip his jumpsuit too, while the hand in his hair continues to just.. play. she's combing his hair back just to watch it fall back into place. ]

Should've known. It's always the quiet ones that like it rough..

[ yeah, definitely just teasing him, though she grips her fingers in his hair at the crown of his head and pulls back, slowly, mostly just to watch his reaction to it ]

[He bites his lip hard as his head tips irresistibly back-- though he's not distracted enough to not add:]

I don't-- that's not what I-- I just like that, all right, it's not something kinky--

It's a little bit kinky-

[ and she sounds a little bit distracted, because she's caught staring at the stretch of his neck, the press of his teeth into his lip. she doesn't usually objectify Remus, and she isn't sure she really is now, but she's definitely more focused on the physicality of their relationship right now than the emotional side of it. she lets his hair slip from her fingers, but not before she leans up to kiss his throat again, just once ]

Tell me something else you like.

I--

[Okay, but so: they've had sex before, and Remus is definitely more comfortable with Raven than he used to be, both physically and emotionally. Which is wonderful! And he likes this, he likes the sharp tug of her fingers and the way her voice has gone low, and he knows her, he knows her well enough to know she'd never laugh at him no matter what he says--

But still, Remus flushes and ducks his head down, kissing her throat as he tries to distract her.]

You first--

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