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I injected myself with a serum. It was supposed to enhance my abilities. That's how it worked at home.

[ she shakes her head a little bit, wincing ]

I already asked Charles. The serum was designed to permanently alter a mutant's X-genes. And it's not all bad, I'm stronger now, and faster, but my shifting is completely messed up. It's- [ painful. ] -harder now, to change.

[He pushes his thumb against her cheek again.]

I-- is there any chance it can get easier in time?

I don't know. [ she glances sideways for a second, bites the inside of her lip ] It's like. It's like I can feel it now, the changes in my body when I change form. It's this stretching, cracking, pulling sensation, instead of.. fluttering, like before. And it takes longer. [ she huffs ] I really, really screwed up, Remus.

But you can still do it.

[He assures her of that, even as he pushes his fingers through her hair, trying to stay close.]

The ability is still there. It may be harder, yes, but-- it could be worse. Is it painful?

[ she nods before she can think to stop herself, because no, she doesn't want to talk about how painful it is, but it's hard to pretend that it's not. though he's right, she can still shift, which means she hasn't ruined her mutation, not really. maybe she can learn to handle the pain better, over time. maybe. ]

Let's not talk about it anymore. [ please, please, please. she gives him a kiss at the corner of his mouth, readjusts her legs around his hips ] I should have waited for another time to bring it up, I just.. didn't want to keep it from you. But it's not- I can just show you, when I can't hold this shift anymore. Hopefully it won't be for another few days. So. Yeah. [ she leans up to kiss him again ] Yeah.. [ kissing, right, let's get back to kissing- ]

[He returns those kisses, and goes for another, because this isn't something he should push now-- but before they go back, he murmurs:]

It'll be okay. I promise. We'll figure this out.

[And then he kisses her again, firmly, trying to reinforce his words with all the love he feels for her, the affection and fondness and worry--]

[ which, incidentally, translates into one fantastic kiss. she's a little selfish about it at first, letting him kiss her, holding onto him like she needs this, needs a second to push herself away from what they were just talking about. her hands slide in from his shoulders to his neck, one hand sinking into his hair again because well, he has really tuggable hair. ]

[He lets out a happy little noise, arching his back and tilting his head-- god, but he likes it when she rakes her hands though his hair. And he teases at her jumpsuit zipper again, tugging it down just slightly-- but not as fast as he could, because he's waiting for a sign of approval from her.]

[ Raven catches his lip between her teeth, tugging at it playfully, trying to lighten the mood ( well, her own mood, by letting herself be playful with him ). it's hard to give him the space he needs to unzip her jumpsuit when all she wants to do is pull him closer, but she loosens her grip on him, rests back into the mattress once she lets go of his lip ]

You really like that, huh? [ said as she pulls her fingers up from the back of his neck into his hair again ]

Ye-- ah-- yeah--

[Remus squirms happily, though he's not so distracted he doesn't take the opportunity to tug her zipper down to her hips.]

Don't laugh, you go mad when I kiss your neck--

Because it feels good when you kiss my neck. It's a little different than my nails on your scalp.

[ her opposite hand is moving between them to unzip his jumpsuit too, while the hand in his hair continues to just.. play. she's combing his hair back just to watch it fall back into place. ]

Should've known. It's always the quiet ones that like it rough..

[ yeah, definitely just teasing him, though she grips her fingers in his hair at the crown of his head and pulls back, slowly, mostly just to watch his reaction to it ]

[He bites his lip hard as his head tips irresistibly back-- though he's not distracted enough to not add:]

I don't-- that's not what I-- I just like that, all right, it's not something kinky--

It's a little bit kinky-

[ and she sounds a little bit distracted, because she's caught staring at the stretch of his neck, the press of his teeth into his lip. she doesn't usually objectify Remus, and she isn't sure she really is now, but she's definitely more focused on the physicality of their relationship right now than the emotional side of it. she lets his hair slip from her fingers, but not before she leans up to kiss his throat again, just once ]

Tell me something else you like.

I--

[Okay, but so: they've had sex before, and Remus is definitely more comfortable with Raven than he used to be, both physically and emotionally. Which is wonderful! And he likes this, he likes the sharp tug of her fingers and the way her voice has gone low, and he knows her, he knows her well enough to know she'd never laugh at him no matter what he says--

But still, Remus flushes and ducks his head down, kissing her throat as he tries to distract her.]

You first--

[ Raven's tipping her head back a little bit, looking up at the ceiling while her fingers brush up and down the back of his neck. ]

Me? I like talking. Not even strictly dirty talk, just talking to you like this is very sexy. I like leaving little marks on your skin with my mouth. I like when you get a little bit possessive. I also really, really like when boys answer my questions... [ hee hee hee ]

'S not that easy--

[He mutters that against her throat and nips at it, teasingly punishing. But, well, she answers, so he soon hesitantly mumbles:]

I like-- I like dirty talk, but also talking like this, yes-- and-- um-- begging-- and things of that nature--

[ a short whimper follows that bite, a little bit surprised, because it feels different than when she's in her true form. her skin is softer when she's like this, she's softer. but she doesn't let herself get caught on the thought for long, not when he's brought up begging.. ]

What's in the nature of begging, exactly? [ yep just pushing his buttons ] You- like the idea of teasing someone until they're begging for you? Or the other way around? [ she presses her heels into the backs of his thighs, just so it's easy to roll her hips up into his ]

[He exhales harshly and pushes his hips back down against her, his head spinning at that pressure.]

I-- um-- the-- the other way--

Yeah? [ she grins as she curls up into the movement, eventually rolling them over because how can she resist? she rests her forehead against his as her hands work on tugging down his zipper ] M'sure I can find a way to make you say 'please'. [ her cheeks might be a little red now too, because she's not nearly experienced enough to be saying things like that, but she mostly just likes teasing Remus, yep ]

[He gapes at her a little, his cheeks bright red-- but she's not laughing at him, and that's better than expected. He bites his lip and reaches up, tugging her jumpsuit off her, his fingers teasing at her breast.]

Is that-- I mean-- if it's stupid--

It's not stupid. [ she shakes her head, holds still for a short while just so he can push her jumpsuit off of her shoulders and off her torso, but then she's leaning down to kiss him again, humming against his mouth ] Telling me you like it might've been stupid, but liking it in the first place isn't.

I don't think--

[Ah, but then he has to kiss her, his tongue teasing at her lips, his fingers wandering lower.]

Nn-- I don't think that if it's what I want, I'll regret it--

There's different kinds of regret, love.

[ which she apparently wants to demonstrate right away, because she's reaching for his hands, fingers circling his wrists so she can pin them down on the mattress near his shoulders. she sits up as much as she can while still holding him down, hips moving against his again ]

You might love it later, but for now- you've kinda given me permission to drive you crazy.

[He always forgets how strong she is. She doesn't look it, is the thing; she's slender, not built, and so he's always mildly surprised by the easy way she pins him to the bed.

Happily he pushes his hips up against her, moving in sync with her, biting his lip as he does.]

Y-you already drive me mad-- god, just looking at you sometimes drives me mad--

No- I do not.

[ d i s b e l i e f, though it's not quite as sharp as it could be, not with the way her breath keeps catching, or the way she's smiling. ]

I'm perfectly agreeable in every single way, that's just a fact.

[ except when she makes a point to tease the hell out of him just to see his reaction, which is just about all the time, right ]

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