I havent the faintest. Im too apprehensive to contact dirk or his feathered brother fellow. Shit i just feel like an absolute wreck. I brought attention to ourselves when i took a gander over and spotted one of ours getting arrested and took action on my own thought.
It was a horrendous, ill prepared sort of act on impulse and dave saved me from having the same fate.
What takes the cake is the fact that dirk told us both to not go to the station cause he didnt trust it at all and we both went anyway and i feel as if i pressured dave to escort with me....
Its just all horrible!!!! Less than a month being in the same vicinity as my closest friend and we are already having shit like this happen and my god. I know dirk has a temper and for whatever reason hes spared me from witnessing it i just..... really dont want anything to happen between us!!! Hes my top notch pal and i mean i trust him enough not to completely walk out on me but i really dont want any part of our friendship severed.
Am.. i being over dramatic about all of this???? Im really unsure of how to properly react!!
no, I think that's a pretty proper reaction to these kinds of things. that outpost was really scary, like *really* scary. I think the only reason why I got out as quick as I did is because of my abilities. even then it was hard getting other people away, almost impossible, and that was with me looking just like everyone else that belonged there. they would have spotted you either way. they started seeking us out after a while, you wouldn't have been able to avoid it.
I feel like I should be just telling you to calm down or something, like maybe that's the normal thing to do here, but I know it's not that easy. though I'm sure your friends won't blame you for this, they can't do that. I would talk to him though, really. if you are best friends, he's going to want you there while he waits for his brother to get better, you know? it might be awkward at first, but it's better that than waiting it out and having him think... I dunno, that you don't want to be there? if that makes sense.
I'm sorry if this feels like thin advice, I think I'm kinda bad at this.
[ TEXTING and TALKING. normally she'd just be there, in person, hugging him or holding his hand, something like that. she's better at comforting people in person, in a physical way. and not being able to look him in the face when she says this stuff is kinda weird. ]
this place gets really scary sometimes, and you can't blame yourself for the things that happen. he made the choice to go with you, you didn't make him. and I'm sure he would want you to be there when he wakes up, so he knows you're okay too. right?
[ Yeah. And as if Jake was going to let somebody like her look at him when his eyes are getting all puffy and he looks like a wimp. Really. He reads everything over and replies after a moment. ]
Erm. I dont really know what to say, uh. I dont really know dave very well im not sure if he will want to speak with me once he is able to. Theyre all very unpredictable and i hardly know what to think of them sometimes but..... I suppose i ought to talk to dirk. Try to get in contact with him at least.
Shucks i dont know what to really say to him though!!!
I also wanted to ask you if something like this has happened before aboard this craft since youve been here awhile.
you should just... tell him you're up for it, if he wants to talk about what happened. that seems pretty mutual, right? no pressure, just letting him know you're there.
and yeah, kinda. we've never visited an outpost before so I can't say it was just like that, but about a month ago there was this sickness? deadly virus kinda thing. nobody died from it, they found the cure, but it was pretty hellish on board during that whole week. there's also this anonymous thing on the network, goes my Smiley? have you heard about that?
Oh, um. I read a helpful post an anonymous user put up and it seemed to help me be on my toes a little more. What of this smiley person??? Has nobody seen him yet? Im unsure if hes a friend or foe.
that sounds fine to me? nice and simple. just go with your gut and it'll be fine, I promise.
nobody's seen him, and nobody really knows if he's a friend or foe. it comes off kind of aggressive, but he hasn't actually done anything besides help us find the cure to that sickness. he has a list, but nobody really knows what it means. either way, we're not really supposed to talk to him over the network, if we can avoid it.
Hmm. I dont trust him. Nor any sort of list. Ill try on my tippy toes especially regarding this individual.
Erm, in any case, i rally do appreciate your input and advice. I wasnt sure who to talk to at all about this and so its really helpful you were willing to spare your time for ole me.
Haha. Im actually feeling a bit better so i thank you for that.
Oh, uh. No no. I just hadnt expect *you* of all people to have the desire to become comrades with me as an individual. I mean, ah. I accept, of course!
So, uh. Done and done!!! Im now friends with the one and only *raven darkholme*, cerulean damsel that ive long since dreamed of existing, now considered a comrade to me.
Golly. I feel as if i won a gold medal. This is a very special day for me.
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Shit i just feel like an absolute wreck. I brought attention to ourselves when i took a gander over and spotted one of ours getting arrested and took action on my own thought.
It was a horrendous, ill prepared sort of act on impulse and dave saved me from having the same fate.
What takes the cake is the fact that dirk told us both to not go to the station cause he didnt trust it at all and we both went anyway and i feel as if i pressured dave to escort with me....
Its just all horrible!!!! Less than a month being in the same vicinity as my closest friend and we are already having shit like this happen and my god.
I know dirk has a temper and for whatever reason hes spared me from witnessing it i just..... really dont want anything to happen between us!!!
Hes my top notch pal and i mean i trust him enough not to completely walk out on me but i really dont want any part of our friendship severed.
Am.. i being over dramatic about all of this????
Im really unsure of how to properly react!!
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I feel like I should be just telling you to calm down or something, like maybe that's the normal thing to do here, but I know it's not that easy. though I'm sure your friends won't blame you for this, they can't do that. I would talk to him though, really. if you are best friends, he's going to want you there while he waits for his brother to get better, you know? it might be awkward at first, but it's better that than waiting it out and having him think... I dunno, that you don't want to be there? if that makes sense.
I'm sorry if this feels like thin advice, I think I'm kinda bad at this.
[ TEXTING and TALKING. normally she'd just be there, in person, hugging him or holding his hand, something like that. she's better at comforting people in person, in a physical way. and not being able to look him in the face when she says this stuff is kinda weird. ]
this place gets really scary sometimes, and you can't blame yourself for the things that happen. he made the choice to go with you, you didn't make him. and I'm sure he would want you to be there when he wakes up, so he knows you're okay too. right?
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He reads everything over and replies after a moment. ]
Erm. I dont really know what to say, uh.
I dont really know dave very well im not sure if he will want to speak with me once he is able to. Theyre all very unpredictable and i hardly know what to think of them sometimes but.....
I suppose i ought to talk to dirk. Try to get in contact with him at least.
Shucks i dont know what to really say to him though!!!
I also wanted to ask you if something like this has happened before aboard this craft since youve been here awhile.
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and yeah, kinda. we've never visited an outpost before so I can't say it was just like that, but about a month ago there was this sickness? deadly virus kinda thing. nobody died from it, they found the cure, but it was pretty hellish on board during that whole week. there's also this anonymous thing on the network, goes my Smiley? have you heard about that?
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Ahem.
Hey buddy i hope youre fairing alright with your brothers brains being all fried and shit and i just wanted to let you know that
My god that sounds so horrific. Erm.
Maybe i ought to keep it as short as possible like......
Hey dirk just wanted to let you know that im here if you need me.
Fuck. I guess thats the best i can do... i really dont know anything about responding to shit like this!!!!
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Oh, um. I read a helpful post an anonymous user put up and it seemed to help me be on my toes a little more.
What of this smiley person??? Has nobody seen him yet?
Im unsure if hes a friend or foe.
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nobody's seen him, and nobody really knows if he's a friend or foe. it comes off kind of aggressive, but he hasn't actually done anything besides help us find the cure to that sickness. he has a list, but nobody really knows what it means. either way, we're not really supposed to talk to him over the network, if we can avoid it.
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I dont trust him. Nor any sort of list. Ill try on my tippy toes especially regarding this individual.
Erm, in any case, i rally do appreciate your input and advice. I wasnt sure who to talk to at all about this and so its really helpful you were willing to spare your time for ole me.
Haha. Im actually feeling a bit better so i thank you for that.
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and I'm glad you're feeling better!
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Uhm. Golly.
*Glasses fog slightly and takes a moment to rub them off.*
I wasnt aware our acquaintance had elevated to reach such a title of friendship already.
I, erm. Im not exactly sure what to say.
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did I jump the gun? cause I understand if you're not ready for that level of commitment yet...
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I just hadnt expect *you* of all people to have the desire to become comrades with me as an individual.
I mean, ah. I accept, of course!
I would enjoy that quite a lot.
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so it's really for the best that you've accepted it.
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Done and done!!!
Im now friends with the one and only *raven darkholme*, cerulean damsel that ive long since dreamed of existing, now considered a comrade to me.
Golly.
I feel as if i won a gold medal.
This is a very special day for me.
Thank you.