i think i'm just fixated on the idea of you meeting someone that changes your ideas of friendship. or how you feel about it, yeah. i'm not saying i want someone to change *you*, just... there's gotta be somebody out there that can help you see for yourself that having people around that care about you isn't a bad thing. i mean really, i only ever had one friend growing up, but that was enough to clue me in on how much better things are when you have someone to share them with. i know we don't really talk about home, where you're from, but the idea of you not having a friend like that seriously eats at me. you might be an assassin and you might carry a lot of anger but that doesn't mean you don't deserve to be around people that make you happy or anything. i dunno. like i'm probably way off base here and you can get mad at me for thinking about it so much, but i really just want to know you're happy.
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